Just Call me......AT

Priceless!

2007-08-18T19:05:00.001-05:00

I'm sitting here, talking to Chris, and the phone rings...

"Hello...Ed?" says a female voice..

"Um...noooo, this is Tina. Who's this?" I say...and the line goes dead. BUT...

I have caller ID!

So, I call the number back, and the convo goes like this:

Me: You looking for Ed?
Her: No, I think I dialed the wrong number...sorry..
Me: Wait!...You asked for Ed by name...you didn't dial a wrong number...who is this?
Her: Oh...um...I ah, someone left a number on my machine last night..and I was trying to figure out who it was..I'm sorry..I have to go.

And she hangs up. I didn't know whether to laugh, get mad...or what.

So....>cue evil laughter<

I used my cell and called back, and spoke very deep..

Me: Hey...Delinda? (the name on the caller ID)
Her: Ed! I'm so sorry, I called your wife by accident!
Me: This is Tina! You stupid bitch! *laughs*

God....I'm laughing so hard, I have tears in my eyes!

An I called Ed to tell him to not have his 'woman' call the house here...and he stammers and says it's a woman from work.

Then...he called back to get the phone number cause he wrote it down wrong!!

I can't stand it...I'm gonna die laughing!!!

I'd call her back and harass her, but...she's already got Ed.

So..that poor poor woman!!

Just shoot me now...

2007-08-17T18:57:00.000-05:00

Okay...so after this nasty week...I'm at the Dr office getting Zack looked at, and what happens??

A woman backs into my parked car!
*sighs*

Why me?!?

But, she admitted fault, she has insurance, and no one was hurt so, that's something at least. But the left tail light doesn't work, and my turn signals are not working either. Bleah..

That's it..I'm staying in for the rest of the weekend...I'll just have dinner delivered. I don't care!

Poor Zack!!

2007-08-16T16:56:00.000-05:00

Another day...another trip to the ER...

*sighs*

Just got back from taking Zack to the ER....for the second time this week.

First, he had the seizure, then on the same freaking day, he gets banged up in a car accident, and now...he has 22 stitches in his..err..well...right testicle.

Where to start...

He was bouncing around the living room at my mothers when he stepped on one of the floor grates for the heating system. And for some reason, the grate popped open, and one leg slipped through, and his one leg went all the way down. The edge of the grate (metal) sliced him open....waay open.

His right...'fella' was almost completely severed, and he lost some blood.

Anyway, he had to get 22 stitches to fix it all up. And now he's laying on the couch all woozy from the pain meds, still irritated at all the people who came in just to poke him.

I feel so sorry for him because I know that's just gotta hurt like Hell. The way this week is going...I'm heading to bed..

Someone wake me when it's safe.

Happy Birthday Sean!!

2007-08-14T23:55:00.000-05:00

My youngest son, Sean Ryan...is now 15!!

Happy Birthday kiddo!

I swear, last week, they were just babies!!!

Week from Hell

2007-08-12T18:55:00.000-05:00

Zack had another seizure today.

A big one. Scared the hell out of me. He's had them off and on for a few years. So we took him to the ER. Just in case.

And this was after Ed and I had another fight...

And to top off the lovely day, as soon as we got back from the ER, my father in law stopped in to see how he was doing.

After chatting for a bit, Russel decided to take them down to my moms as a favor to me.

No biggie. But, 10 minutes later, I get a call from my mom saying that a car had broadsided them! :o

Luckily, my boys were okay, they had their seat belts on, and the car has dual airbags that deployed, but we had to take Russel to the ER to get checked out. Zack has a small cut on his leg, but they were more scared than hurt.

His car is [i]totaled[/i], and the fucker that hit them took off!! But he hit another car on his way and she got his license plates. >:<

*sighs*

I just wanna go to bed and curl up and end this day....

Anger....or not.

2007-08-11T18:54:00.000-05:00

Well, had another fight with the fucknugget.One that involved him not wanting to pay child support, and then kicking a dent in the side of my car...and then being called everything but my name.

At first, I was pissed, obviously, but then I started thinking.

No matter what...at the end of the day, he's alone...no friends, and even his family wont have him now. So, he's truly alone in the world.

And here I sit...with my family behind me, two wonderful kids, a good job, an awesome future, tons of friends in "real" life and on the net...and my sweet loving Chris. I know I'm loved. Very much so.

So. I win.

Weird stuff that Sean says

2007-07-29T18:53:00.000-05:00

I'm sitting in the living room just watching TV, and Sean runs in all excited and says:

"Mom! I know how to get the crack addicted people off drugs! We'll get them really high, them make them watch Jurassic Park and put them on a roller-coaster! They'll think the dinosaurs are real and it'll scre them so much they'll quit drugs!"

Then he threw his hands in the air and ran out of the room.

*blinks*

oookay......

Pottermania!

2007-07-21T18:52:00.000-05:00

Okay, so I went to Borders last night at midnight, actually 11, so get my HP book. Saw the long line, but, I expected it, so I got in line...

An hour and a half later, I get to the counter and hold out my hand to get my book, but, the lady gave me a pink wristband. Now, I'm thinking..."I dont want this...I want my book!"

But, that would be too simple..

The pink band was to let you know where you stood in the line. Yep, you had to wait in line, so you could go get in line!!

After another 2 hours, I said "Fuck it" and left. On the way home, I had to stop at Wal-Mart to get some stuff, and what do I see there?

Two full pallets of books, just sitting there. So, in closing I want to say:

"SCREW YOU BORDERS!!!!"

I'll post spoilers later. ;)

And oh yeah, had my surgery thing today and it went well.
I should have the results by Tuesday at the latest.

Male chimps!

2007-07-18T18:51:00.000-05:00

Funny story from the docs office:

I went for my chemo today, and while I was waiting...I saw an old Journal type magazine he had in a case. From the former Soviet Union..

Bored, I glanced through it, and it was showcasing a study back in the 70's about cancer research.

It was on breast cancer and they were using chimps. After 7 years of working on vaccines, and testing various ways to prevent it...a new intern on her first day, pulled one of the scientists aside and pointed out a major flaw:

They had all male chimps!

*laugh/dies*

Back to chemo

2007-07-09T18:50:00.000-05:00

Well, I got the call from my doctor today, and I'm headed back to the chemo..

Fuck. *sighs*

He said my CEA and CA 19-9 markers dropped waaaay down. But, just not to 0. So, I'm back to the chemo on Tuesdays every other week. For at least 3 more weeks. Hopefully, the Neulasta will work this time for the tiredness.

And Saturday, I'm to have surgery to remove what he called..."A little trouble spot". But, luckily, he's sure he can do it with the scope, or if that fails with a laparoscope. Still...meh. I'd almost rather have stitches that that damn scope.

Then a chest C-ray, and another CAT scan, I'm assuming before the surgery..and then back home.

Christ, at this point, I should glow in the dark.

Anyway, theres the update. And I still have most of my hair...for now.

So, wish me luck. And to all of you that have sent me cards, or text messages, or E-mails or just called..

Thank you all so much. You have no idea what that means to me.

Last Chemo??

2007-07-05T20:50:00.000-05:00

Well, today I had what I'm hoping will be the last chemo session.

Gods..I hate them...even if I know why I need them, anyway. The doc gave me a ton of papers telling me my status and all that..I am;

T category-T1

N category- N0

M category- M0

So, I'm stage 1, which is good, I suppose. He was talking surgery, but I'm getting a CAT scan in 10 days cause he thinks it can be done with another colonoscopy. Oh...yay.. But that's better than being cut on. Still...bleah.

But, I've lost no more hair, and the white sores in my mouth don't seem to be getting any worse. However, my skin is a mess. It's dryer than any sandpaper I've ever seen. Yuk.

If the CAT scan shows it a go for the scopy thing, then he's going to see if they got it all, if not...it's back to chemo and possible radiation, which he's trying to avoid.

So, I'll let you all know as soon as I know. :-)

And..I can have beer again!

My Foray into Hell

2007-07-04T18:49:00.000-05:00

Fireworks down on the Riverfront, or…My foray into Hell..

Okay folks, I have a few things I need to vent on here tonight. I took the boys down to the riverfront to see fireworks, and I knew I was already feeling ill, so I know that's why I'm so bitchy, but..

People….some things shouldn't HAVE to be spelled out..

1) Its gonna be crowded. Each year, over 500,000 people show up, so you are gonna get bumped. Guys, this is not a formal invitation to declare Armageddon. Step aside, and get over it.

2) Women, learn to dress in front of a mirror. If your belly hangs over your belt in any way…cover that shit up. Seriously. Unless you are one of the 15 year old supermodel with abs of steel these things are designed for…no belly shirts. And don't get me started on gold lame spandex…

3) On the same note…if you wear a size 20, do NOT raid your little sisters closet and squeeze your fat ass into a 4. When your shirt is so tight, I can literally see the indent in your belly button, buy a goddamn shirt that fits!

4) Parents…if you either dress or allow your 12 year old daughter to dress like a $5 whore…people may actually treat her as such. Do not start a screaming match with the 19 year old perv who's drooling over your child who's wearing something that seems to consist of nothing more than dental floss, a handkerchief and two buttons. You dumb ignorant fucks..

5) Hey folks…your watching fireworks directly underneath one of the largest displays in the Midwest. It might actually be, dare I say it? NOISY!! Do not, for the love of God…bring your newborn infant, or child under the age of 18 months and not expect them to start shrieking in fear when the sonic booms go off less that 200 feet from you.

6) Guys, unless you can change the laws of physics, those 5 beers you just drank in the last 30 minutes did not give you the body of Hulk Hogan. Don't start a fight over stupid shit just because there's a crowd watching. Beer or no beer, you still look like a scrawny 130lb wuss. Yes, I'm talking to you.

7) Boys, I have 3 words for you: Pants. That. Fit. Yes, it was me who slid up to you wearing the red jeans that were so low you had to hold on to them and give gravity a helping hand with a gentle tug. And by the way…those nasty boxers do not become you….dumbass..

8) Parents…keep an eye on your damn kids!! Yes, you. You know who you are. Nuff said.

9) And last but not least, do not…for the love of all you hold Holy, do not butt in line in front of me after I've been waiting 45 damn minutes to get my son a lemonade.

Yep, don't mess with me when I've had chemo, had to deal with Ed, and deal with morons all day..

Transformers!

2007-07-03T12:48:00.000-05:00

My Transformer Movie Review

Okay, I just got back from seeing the movie, and here is the review I promised. First of all, I went to the movie with low expectations, and fully understanding that this was not going to be the Transformer movie I wanted.

Also as a lifelong Transformer fan, I did try to give the movie a sporting chance, so given that, it really wasn't so bad. So here goes:

The good:

The good parts were there. The original Optimus voice, and many characters that we remembered, to a point. The trademark ILM special effects. A lot of action scenes. A good bit of adult humor, and of course, seeing the bad guys lose. Shia's acting was one of the things that I have no quarrel with at all. I actually believed this kid was doing what he was doing. He wins in that part.

A lot of the humor included Frenzy as a Decepticon who I think has spent too much time being a chicken. His name actually suited him, and watching him spaz out was pretty funny.

Making 'Bee a Camaro and Ironhide a rough and tough truck I actually agreed with. I never liked their original designs, and these did suit them better.

Several lines that hinted back to the original series such as "Autobots, roll out", "More than meets the eye", and of course…"One shall stand…." made the audience clap at least once.

The scene with the Autobots in Sam's backyard was pretty funny as well. Prime telling the others "Man, I can't believe you guys can't be quiet for five minutes!" while they were hiding was cute.

The bad:

The bad parts were there as well. Hugo Weaving as Megatron was simply wasted. If I didn't know it was him, I would have never guessed it was him. Characters acting very much out of character, such as Ironhide wanting to kill the boy's parents, and threatening to kill Sam's dog.

A bit too much action in certain scenes. Much of it towards the end was almost a blur. The part where Jazz is killed, for example, goes by so quick, if you're not looking for it, you'll miss it. And I think Jazz deserved a better death scene. Or at least the ability for the audience to know what was going on.

The Mighty Decepticons were reduced for the most part, as generic movie bad guys. Half the time, the audience in the theater didn't know who was who. More on that later as well.

Megan Fox. Seriously. The poor girl wore the same expression on her face the entire movie. Whether she was walking down the street, fleeing the cops, or escaping the evil Decepticons, she looked rather bored. Or stoned. Or both, I dunno. She's very pretty, and I'm sure there's a movie out there for her, but…this wasn't it.

Listening to Sam's mom discussing her son masturbating…could have done without that part.

Bumblebee "peeing" on the Sector 7 guy…um..gross. Also, they did leave the Devastator name in…sorry Orci…it wasn't fixed.

The Ugly:

No character development. As much as this movie was touted as "not for the fans", if you weren't a fan in any way, you'd probably be lost as to who was who. And even then, several people there were. More on that later too.

Crappy designs, and a bad script, I could have lived with, but, there was nothing there that drew you in. Nothing that made you want to root for the good guys. Nothing that made you boo the bad guys. Nothing that screamed "This is a Transformer Movie!!"

And that was a shame as there was so much potential. As cheesy as the original cartoon was, it was the characters that you loved. It wasn't the animation, or the plot, it was the Transformers themselves. Autobot or Decepticon, everyone had a favorite, and over the years, we all grew to love all of them. But this movie had none of that.

Sure it was a good action flick, but, it had none of the emotional involvement that has sustained this series for over 25 years, and had spawned a movie, comics, several more series, and tons of fanfic. Dammit! Yes, we all admit it…We want more G1!!

My take of the Characters:

Prime- Done well, but yeah…the flames sucked. Also, lose the lips. Really. Acted like a rather wimpy leader.

Ironhide- Voice was all wrong. Would rather he be red. Character not as I remembered. Ironhide is NOT Dirty Harry.

Jazz- Sounded and acted like a "ghetto thug" in training. Gah…calling the humans "bitches" More gah..

Bumblebee- Liked the Camaro. Getting to talk in the end not explained. Sorta liked him though.

Ratchet- Almost forgot he was in the movie….and lose the lime green paint.

Megatron- Needs Welker. Lose the alien thorn bush look. Saw none of the calculating evil dude we all loved to hate. All we saw was a homicidal raging machine.

Starscream- Only redeeming feature was he only had 2 lines. Got to see him 'tuck tail' in the end, didn't see any of the "Megs/Screamer" friction we all loved.

Barricade/Brawl(Devastator)/Blackout- I was waiting for the "Grr…Me Hulk smash…aaarrrghh!!" line… Just your typical generic bad guys. Such a shame.

Scorponox- Not bad, I guess…but what did they do? Leave him in the desert?

Frenzy- Yeah, he's not the real Frenzy, and his design makes me want to puke, but…almost liked the little buggar. Almost.

A few more things:

I was kinda disappointed in my theater experience. I also go to the opening night for movies like this because, most of the time, it's more entertaining to watch the audience than the movie. But, not this time. Here in Columbus, it opened on 3 screens I believe, and in my theater, many of the employees didn't even know the movie was playing that night. I got there early so I could get a good seat, but, I could have waited.

With 15 minutes till the movie started, there were 18 people there. 18!! A few more trickled in at the last moment, but in all, there were less than 30 people. Wow.

Also, none of the geekinees that I was wanting .Other than one other person, me and my son were the only ones wearing a TF shirt. No hooting and hollering, no enthusiastic clapping…nuttin. So sad.

Also, I think that the movie people should give out programs to show who's who in the movie.

Here's a few snippets of some of the audience around me. So funny it stuck in my head:

(during the freeway scene)

Guy1: Daaaaamn!…Prime kicked Brawls ass!"

Guy2: "That's not Brawl, it's Devastator.."

Guy1: "I thought it was Brawl.."

Guy2: "Naaw, Brawl is the big black one.."

Guy1: (points) "That big one?"

Guy2: "No, idiot, that's Barricade.."

Guy1: "I thought Barricade was the helicopter.."

Guy2: "No..Barricade is the tank."

Guy1: "You said he was the cop car."

Guy2: Wait..I mean that's Brawl."

Guy1: "Dude..the other big black one?"

Guy2: "Um…hang on.."

(behind me, during the Air Force One scene)

Guy1: "Fuck, they made Soundwave a chicken!"

Guy2: "That's not Soundwave, it's Frenzy.."

Guy1: "Then wheres Soundwave?"

Guy2: "He's not in the movie..just Frenzy.."

Guy1: "Then how does Frenzy get there…and he's supposed to be blue..right?

Guy2: "I think he rides in the cop car.."

Guy1: "Soundwaves a car? Is Ravage the K9 dog then?"

Guy2: "No! Soundwaves not in the movie! Sshh!"

Guy1: "Then how does the dog get around?"

No. Freaking. Lie!

In Conclusion:

Would I recommend this movie to anyone else. And how would I rate it?

As a Transformer movie?

It fails. Utterly. Sorry. So, maybe a 3 out of 10.

As a Summer "Michael Bay" Big 'splosions, boobies and lots of action flick?

Yes, it delivers as promised. A 7 out of 10.

As a mix of the two?

Hmm, It's still enjoyable. Not what I wanted, but actually a bit better than I was expecting. So, over all, a 6 out of 10.

Bleah!

2007-06-19T13:07:00.000-05:00

I really need to talk to my doc..

I was looking through the net...reading others accounts of thier cancer stories, and so many od them say things like:

Yeah, I get my chemo once a week for a few months...

or..

I was on chemo, twice a month, for 3 months..blah blah blah..

So...why am I getting a total of 7 treatments in only 3 weeks?? And of course...he's out of the office.

*sighs*

On another note, although I still have my hair...I am starting to see a few..escapees.

Bleah.

Also, another thing I have learned from this is that the old adage is true..

When the chips are down, and your back is to the wall, you really find out who your real freinds are.

First Chemo!

2007-06-18T18:46:00.000-05:00

Well, had my first chemo today, and..

I think everyone should do this at least once...fun fun fun..

*sarcasm*

First, they took so much blood, I don't think I have any left!! Then, they started the drip, and...

I threw up out of the blue on the poor nurse! :-( Then, when it was almost done..I threw up again. The poor cleaning people..

But, I don't feel as bad as I thought I was going to, so, I'm going to go ahead and go to work..

Just, as soon as I get the cat or someone to carry me there.

Cancer

2007-06-16T14:45:00.000-05:00

Got back from the doctor with my results.

I have cancer. Yep, you heard right, cancer. In the small intestine.

But, it was caught early, hasn't spread, and more importantly, hasn't affected my lymph nodes yet. So, I start chemo next week, and my doc says theres a very good chance that I won't need surgery. So, that's good news.

I guess. I still feel like total shit. But, I'll also be going on a drug called Neulasta that should help keep me from getting so drained.

So, life goes on, and you just have to roll with the punches I suppose. But, I have found a bit of humor in this.

As a lot of people know, I'm a big Star Trek fan. Well, I'm sitting in the room, talking to the doc about the treatment stuff, and it dawns on me what his name is.

Yep, my new doctors name is Dr Bashir. I just pointed at him and started to laugh, so he looks at me like I'm a blooming idiot. So, I explained why I was laughing. Anyway...

So, there it is...and yeah, I'm a bit scared but, I know I can get through this. I mean, I guess I have 2 options:

I can sit her and cry and whine, and say "Oh woe is me...whaaa whaaa..."

Or;

I can get my treatments done as soon as possible, and just do what I have to do.

Man...I need a hug....

I'm back..

2007-02-19T14:35:00.000-05:00

Okay...got moved into the new place...and I have internet back.

Now, lets see if I can remember this poor neglected blog!

I need people to nag me!

Hey..I'm still here!

2006-09-20T16:35:00.000-05:00

Wow, I forgot I had this blog!

So, I'll see if I can update it more than once a year.

I promise!!

Just shoot me already

2005-11-19T23:54:00.000-05:00

Wow, when it rains...it pours.

What a week. Two days ago, I banged my head at work on a speaker, and when I stood up to bitch about it, I whacked my head...in the same spot..again on a plasma tv dge....

So, two stitches later, and I guess I'm okay to go...right?

Wrong. I have a slight concussion. How do I know this?

Yesterday, I get up...do the moring routine, and felt..odd. I go out to my car, start it...and thats the last thing I remember.

I woke up to see an ambulance guy asking me...."Maam, can you hear me?"

I blacked out in my car.

Thank G_d, I didn't wreck it, and I didn't have my kids with me.

So, I get three days with no car...doctors orders, and my mom spazzing out over me.

And I feel lke crap.

Bleah....

Tagged...

2005-09-23T21:27:00.000-05:00

Okay...my turn...Hmm...

20 Random things...

1) my middle name is Ann
2) I have a lot of grey hairs now
3) My feet hurt right now
4) I'm a cat person, not a dog person
5) My house is blue
6) I wear glasses
7) I have too much crap in my house
8) My fav color is purple
9) I like chocolate
10)I hate cell phones
11) I had chinese for lunch
12) I have 4 kittens
13) I'm a big Transformers fan
14) I like doing car installs
15) Halloween is my fav holiday
16) I dye my hair
17) I like older movies
18) I can't sing
19) I'm a big Sci-Fi fan
20) I spend too much time on the internet

Basics
. full name- Tina Ann(and that's all you really need to know)
. height- 5'6"
. hair color- Dark Brown
. real hair color- Dark Brown
. eye color- Medium Brown
. birthday- September 20
. age- 35

Love-Bleah.....
. taken by who? Getting divorced
. for how long? 16 years
. why do you like him/her? Hah! You're kidding. Right?
. is he/she older than you? no

Favorites
. drink- beer
. ice cream flavor- chocolate
. smell- bread
. sport- football
. channel- Discovery
. celebrity- None, really
. memory- when my kids were born
. candy- Nerds
. show- Star Trek DS9
. animal- cats

This or that
. roses or daisies- roses
. cell phone or AiM- AIM.
. mall or movies- Movies
. tv or computer- computer
. cat or dog- cat
. rock or rap- rock
. water or milk- water
. shorts or pants- pants
. dinner and a movie or walk on the beach- walk on the beach
. blue or pink- blue
. color or black and white- color
. friends or family- family
. baseball or basketball- basketball!
. coke or pepsi- pepsi
. bright or dark- bright!

Last thing you...
. ate- chinese
. drank- water
. saw- kitten in my lap
. touched besides the computer- kitten
. watched on tv- the weather channel
. saw in a movie theater- Fantastic Four
. wanted- food
. needed- food!
. twisted- hair
. listened to- the pc starting up
. squeezed- the botton on my car remote
. yelled at- my boss
. punched- the bag at the gym
. tapped- the top of the table

Last time you...
. cried- yesterday
. yelled- today
. smiled- cant remember
. ate- a few hours ago
. changed clothes- this morning
. slept- too long ago....
. worked out- yesterday
. played a game- I dunno.
. played a sport- does the gym count?
. went to the mall- a while ago
. went to the movies- in July
. ate fast food- at lunch today
. went to church- Too long ago....
. talked to someone- Um.....

Random

Too lazy to do the rest......

I'm alone....

2005-09-22T20:09:00.000-05:00

It just dawned on me. I'm alone. For the first time in...well, as long as I can remember. With the divorce finally moving ahead, I'm all by myself.

I mean, I have my kids, and my mother and brothers, and friends, but I'm missing that...Something else.

Companionship.

This will be the first year that I'll spend the Holidays without a partner. And I don't know how I'll handle that, really. I've always had someone there with me, even if it was Ed. Now, I'll be the one in the corner...by myself. While everyone is talking and laughing with thier spouses and mates, I'll be...alone.

When people are kissing under the mistletoe...I will be the one on the side who watches.

When the clock strikes midnight on New Years Eve....I wont be kissing my someone special.

*sighs* I guess it just hit me all at once.

And honestly...It's depressing me right now.

So, I thought about it all last night and heres what I want in a life partner:

I want someone who will not only love me, but care for me, trust me, and respect me.

I want him to laugh with me, cry with me, and laugh at my dumb jokes.

I want him to be a kid at heart, but be an adult when I need him too..

I want someone who will watch cartoons with me, someone who likes all those silly sci-fi things..

I want a guy I can take to the movies to see movies like F4 and action flicks..

I want to be able to roll over in the night and know what someones there....when I have bad dreams, someone I can cuddle with..

I want someone who will kill spiders for me, and not laugh at me when I ask him to do it..

I want someone I can just sit and talk too, just for no reason..

I want him to be smart, funny, and more importantly a friend..

I want someone who I know will stand my me, no matter what...

Someone who will hold me in his arms and tell me that everything will be alright in the world...

I guess I just want to be loved....and cared for..

Is that asking too much?

Kids, and School

2005-09-22T16:36:00.000-05:00

Well, this is a good thing.

I had to go to school today to re-enroll my son in class. He has a form of Autism and goes to spesial Ed classes..Anyway.

His new school happenes to be the one his older brother goes to also. And Zack is well, an average teen..angsty and all that. Well..

All the time I'm there, theres a steady flow of teachers in and out and thay all stop to talk to me about Zack.

"Oh, such a nice boy. Always listens and does what I tell him"

"Zack is the nicest boy..."

"Oh, he's doing so great! A pleasure to have in class..."

Okay..who is this at school? It can't be my son...Right?

As I'm thinking this, he walks in with another teacher and HOLDS OPEN THE DOOR FOR HER...! My son! Wow....

Well, I guess he's good at hiding it at home. :-)

My day from Hell...caution -bad language...

2005-08-27T21:44:00.000-05:00

Or...AT's Totally Fucked up day...

Today was the day from hell..

To begin with...

I had to be at this stupid meeting at 8am, then, I did get a chance to actually run to the gym. however...

Got back to work at 11, customer issues all over the place..

Customer 1's Dish won't work...can I go out and fix it.. Um...No! I'm not the service dude, and I'm not doing it for free..

Customer 2's remote wont work...Okay..how about, oh, I don't know...GIVE THEM A NEW ONE? This ain't rocket science folks..

Customer 3 just wanted to dreck me all over the store and then not buy anything after two hours..

Then, it got bad. One (or more) of my fellow dumb fucks tore apart my audio room, and left wires hanging all over.

Someone else took all the antenna's off of the receivers. Why? Who the FUCK knows....?

A receiver was sold off of a display, when we still had three new in a box. Holy Fuck....

Then, just as the day was ending...(thank the Gods) A customer comes in irate over a credit card or something..

She's what we call a "rich bitch" you know the kind..."I have a few pennies in my pocket so I'm better than you."

Well, I'm handling another customer dispute at the front counter, standing with two of the male managers, when I hear her voice just keep getting higher and higher and so on...

Out of the corner of my eye, I see an arm swing..

She smacked my sales manager across the face so hard, she knocked a tooth loose. He just stands there, and my General Manager (Fuck face Pussy) Also backs off a bit and stares at her..

Well, I've pretty had enough at this point, so as she starts to take another swing, I reach out and grab her arm, She starts screaming at me, telling me she's gonna sue me...(yeah, what the fuck ever)...

And just as I'm assuming the general Manager is going to step in, she spits at me and calls me a bitch and swings at me.

Yeah, it put me over the edge.

I jumped the counter, twisted her arm behind her back, and knocked her to the floor so I could kneel on her back to hold her down.

Finally, all the guys come foreword, and "escort" her to the front of the store where the bitch calls the police..

Now, she's kicking screaming and threatening everyone to come back and 'Get us" and my manager calls me into the office...

He says he has to 'document' the episode, and I think.."Yeah, to make sure we don't get sued"..

Nooooo...It's to write me up for keeping her from beating his pansy ass into the ground.

Fuck him!!!!

I walked out, and told the woman if she wanted another go at him to go right ahead.

By the way...I didn't get written up.

I need a hug.

Coool weather........

2005-07-27T18:06:00.000-05:00

Finally! The weather has changed to something less than "Hotter than Hell..."

Of course, it does this after I spent three days out in the parking lot at work, in the 100+ degree weather on the hot asphalt during one of out tent sales....and working 12 hour shifts.

I thought I was going to melt into a puddle of goo.

But, today, the sun is not shining, and theres a nice breeze, and the temperature has dropped over 20 degrees, and I have the day off.

I'm loving it. :-)

James "Scotty" Doohan died

2005-07-21T00:43:00.000-05:00

Wow, Scotty died today....

A great man, who'll be missed...

Yeah, I actually cried. I had met him a few years back at a convention.

He asked that all the people there call him "Uncle Jimmy"..

Damn, he was just.....a really nice Guy.

Everyone was screaming to meet Shatner, and we were all backstage.

I was standing there and he walked up and leaned against the wall beside me and asked...

"So, you're not in line to meet Mr Blowover?"

I almost laughed myself silly. We talked for about 10 minutes and I told him that he was the reason I decided to go into engineering, and he gave me a hug.

Zapped!

2005-07-11T21:31:00.000-05:00

Well, just to let you all know...I'm co-ordinating this blog with my Star Wars one...

Today I spent 9 hours ripping the wiring out of the entire audio room at work and rewiring it.

No problem, except...

I was cutting through a bundle of speaker wire, and halfway through, discovered that there was a power cord in there.

Now, cutting through a power cord with a pair of metal wire strippers is, well, a bad thing.

So, I found myself on my arse, with a now half melted pair of strippers, part of my thumbnail taken off....and a small hole in my right sock.

I still have this weird taste in my mouth, and my hair is 'poofier' in spots.

Yeah...I love my job!

Funerals.....

2005-05-29T21:27:00.000-05:00

Friday was the funeral for my uncle Ott.

Not much to say...........I hate funerals..........

Fridge Commando

2005-05-23T18:09:00.000-05:00

Alright, most people know that I work in retail.

Yesterday, I was selling a fridge to this customer who seemed to be dressed very nicely. He was polite and all of that. We went over to one of the closing tables so I could finish getting his information when I noticed that he was wearing shorts.

Now, theres nothing wrong with that. They were nice shorts, but a little short.

I was finishing up taking his information when for some reason I happened to look down. I then realized that his shorts had ridden up just a wee bit.

I also realized that he was definatly going "commando" that day. ;)

I mean, c'mon! You live in a nice part of town, and obviously have nice clothes...

But, you might wanna take a few more minutes in the morning to make sure your wardrobe is a bit more complete!.

:D

I can die happy now.

2005-05-04T21:13:00.000-05:00

Oh. My. God.

I was online earlier and a friend sent me an IM. It essentially said,

"Tina!! Get to my theater...NOW."

He works for a local theater, and I'm not gonna say which one, but they received thier "film" of, well, a certain new movie slated to come out on May 19th.

Oh my God! It was just us and about 30 other people.

I can't stop grinning...........

Back from CIII

2005-04-25T17:32:00.000-05:00

Ah...what a weekend. :-)

I stood in lines that were unbelievable, forgot the kid's ADD meds, left a bag of stuff I bought in the hotel when I left, lost the car 3 times, had to walk in the rain to find said car, ended up with a cold, blew my budget on the first day...

And wouldn't have missed it for the world.:-)

Whoa, where to start....

First, Ed didn't go at the last moment, but I still took Zack. He was pretty good, and I got to meet so many wonderful people from the boards.

The lines made me skip a lot of the good stuff, but Zack got to go on stage with Ray Park (Darth Maul) and duel with him.

Went to a bar with a lot of the Cantina people. There isn't a nicer bunch of people out there. And I mean it.:-)

Spent some time with Bert (yodamum) in the hotel lobby, watching all the "kids" playing with thier lightsabers. The look on the hotel staff, and other people staying there was unforgetable.

Also, I ran into the "Arrhae Tahl Fan Club". Holy crap!

Someone in the Cantina obviously set me up. I was sitting in the Fan Lounge, when this group of 4 people came up to me, all giggle and fanboy like. "Oooh, It's Arrhae Tahl! Can I get a picture with you? Can I get an autograph?" and stuff like that.

I played along....the first time. The second time, after they left, and I was beet red, this other group of people walked up and asked for an autograph as well. I tried to explain that I was 'nobody',and the man persisted. I mumbled somethig and signed it.

This poor sap is going to go home and be all happy about getting an "AT" autopraph. And I'm sure his friends are going to say something like, "Who the %$@! is Arrhae Tahl?"

Anyway. I took lots of pics, and I'm still uploading them. Will write more later.

Man,I had fun!!!

Update for Sean

2005-04-20T15:03:00.000-05:00

I almost forgot to post this.

We got his MRI and CAT scna back. Poor little fella tore most of the muscles and tendons in his foot and ankle. It looks terrible! He may have to have surgery. We'll know Wednesday after we get back.

On the upside, (sorta) he gets to be pushed around CIII in a wheelchair.

He's loving every minute of it.

CIII

2005-04-20T15:01:00.000-05:00

Next stop, CIII!! Man, I'm so psyced!! However, some of the people I had hoped were going, wont be there. :-( Yeah, you know who you are, too.:-)

But, I got Ed to go with me, and I messed up the hotel reservations.

We cant check in until Friday at 12:30am! So, we just have to hang out until then, or pay this stupid upcharge .

Yeah, I'm cheap. :-)

Well, I'm off to Georgefest!

What a week

2005-04-13T19:14:00.000-05:00

Lord, where to start....

Sean has basicly screamed all week, poor kid. We took him wednesday to get the MRI, wednesday night back to the ER for more pain meds, (4th time this week), friday to the doctor so he could just stare at the foor, and today to the specialist. Who also just looked at it.

He has to go tomorow for a CAT scan, to see if he needs surgery. He's still laying on the couch whining about it hurting. At least he has a big walking cast on it to help support it.

I want to help, but I cant. And I hate to admit...after almost two weeks of almost no sleep....I just want him to go to sleep for a bit.

Does this make me a bad mom?

Lovely weekend......

2005-04-03T20:09:00.000-05:00

Well, this weekend was just fabulous.

Sean somehow broke one of the bones in his left foot. We took him to the ER, and they splinted it, and sent him home. The next dy the poor kid cried and whined all day, and that's not like him, so......

Saturday night, back to the ER we go, Sean screaming the entire time. We were there for almost 5 hours. Man, I hate going there. :-(

So, outfitted with a new splint, and some tylenol with codeine (thank you God), home we go.

Now, I just gotta teach him to walk on crutches. Poor kid.

My life is crapola right now.

2005-03-30T23:18:00.000-05:00

Well, heres a recap of the last two weeks. :p

The saturday before last, I was mugged at lunch at work.

Well, sorta. I went over to the KFC, stepped out of my car, and there were two guys standing there. I didn't think anything about it, when one of them said "Nice car." I mumbled something like, "Okay" and started to go in.

One of them grabbed my purse strap, and started to run. Well, the hell with that!!

I held on,and we played tug of war for a minute, his friend yelling at him to "come on! Come on!"

This spawn of society had the audacity to have this look on his face, like he was surprised that I wasn't letting go. Finally, I punched him in the face as hard as I could, knocking him down. :-)

He and his buddy took off, just as two cops who were eating there, ran out.

He didn't get my purse. :-)

And today, I got home to find out that the boys were wrestling in the living room, a huge no-no, and they cracked the screen shield on my 55" Mitsubishi HDTV.

Well, heck. I'm going to bed.

Bleah............

From the Mouths of babes

2005-03-04T20:16:00.000-05:00

You ever just realize, out of the blue, that your kids are no longer the darling little innocent angels that you envision them as?

Yesterday, we were at my father-in laws house and somehow we got on the subject of bullies. Well, after a long discussion with my kids, he turned to my youngest son, and said:

"Well, you know what they say Sean, keep your friends close...."

And my youngest little angel, my sweet litte boy replied:

"And your enemies cowering in fear at your feet!"

All the time while holding up his fist, and having a very serious scary look on his face.

At first I thought:

"Thats my boy!"

Then I thought:

"Thats it. I'm cutting off the video games."

Tina's fabulous new Knee

2005-02-02T14:56:00.000-05:00

Okay, I had to have the knee "readjusted" again, so here I sit with my knee missing a few screws, but, held together with, I kid you not...

Glue. Okay, so it's surgical glue, but it's glue dangit!!

It does feel better, but...I dunno. Glue? Grrrr!

Anyway....

Actually went to the base here to have the work done. Man, I love sand....NOT! And I'll kill the next person who gives me the "I hate sand.." speech that Anakin gave in EpII.
I mean it. :-)

However, this hunky looking officer gave me a "Revenge Of The Sith" T-shirt. So, it all worked out. :-) :-)

But, it seems that since I'm here on the base, people assume that I'm back "in". I'm not people. Now leave me alone, and I'm not saluting you. Nyah!

(for the folks here that knew me from when I was in before)

Yeah Steve, Allen, Jesse and Craig, that means you. Ya big lugs.

yeah, I'm rambling, but it's the pain meds...I swear.

I want to go home. I want to pet my cat. I want to walk around in just my pj's.

Heck, I just want to fit back in them at this point. Man, I've gained weight. Bleah. I'm up to almost a size 14. :-( Stupid steroids. I'm hoping to lose it before I go to Celebtation III in Indy.

For all you non-Star wars fans, that the big get together. :-) Ah well, if not, oh well.

Anyway.....since i'm not making any sense...I'm outta here!!

:-)

I'll be back soon...I swear!

2005-01-05T20:07:00.000-05:00

Well, if you've been checking in on me, you've probable haven't seen a lot of me. My PC finally died, and I've been working about 75 hours per week at work.

Whew!!

But, I'll be back here and on the boards, yes, all of them in a few weeks. :-)

Things have been going well, we're in our new place, and I've found most of my stuff still in one peice. :-)

So, I'll talk to all of you later.

Hugs!

New story finished

2004-11-18T23:43:00.000-05:00

Okay, finally finished my new TF story. I should be up and running on Lexicon in the next day or so. If you want to read it, I have to warn you...

This one turned out extreemly sappy. :-)

But, I'm happy with it.

Bush wins

2004-11-03T16:14:00.000-05:00

Yeah, I waited 2 hours in line to vote, and Bush wins.

Go Bush, I guess. :p

Now that the circus is over, maybe we can get some actual work done now. :p

Vote!!

2004-11-02T18:03:00.000-05:00

Voted today. Man, those were long lines!

Well, nothing more to do other than sit back and watch the circus...........

My kids

2004-10-19T13:46:00.000-05:00

I wanted to share this with everyone....Just when you think kids in America are all a bunch of spoiled kids, something happens to change your opinions.

Earlier today the mailman brought the mail, and my youngest went to get it. He came back, and handed it all to me, except for one letter.
I assumed it was for him.

An hour later, both of my boys asked me to either write them a check, or show them how to get a money order.

My first thought was, they want to buy some more games or something. When I asked what they wanted it for, Sean, the youngest held up a card from the Mid-Ohio Foodbank.

They had both pooled all of their money from their rooms and wanted to donate it.

Zack, said. "Mom, did you know there are lots of kids out there who don't get any dinner every night? Sometimes they don't get any breakfast either!"

He was appalled at this concept. Between the both of them, they had almost $45.00.

I wrote them the check.

I'm so proud of them. :-)

Had a little accident today....

2004-10-16T20:58:00.000-05:00

This morning, I had to be at work at 8am. No big deal. After the meeting, I was on my way home, when it suddendly started to rain so hard, I couldn't see. So I started to slow down on the highway.......

Well, it seems the semi behind me had sorta the same idea. Just as I slowed down, he changed lanes....Right into mine.

He caught me in the rear left bumper and hit me with just enough force to spin me around in 2 complete 360 degree turns, across 2 lanes of moving traffic, and into a small ditch.

Well, after I got my bearings, I got out of my car, and looked at my new car.

After all that, I only had one small scuff mark about an inch long on the bumper.

Damn, am I lucky or what?!?

The cop who arrived on the scene helped the semi driver push my car out of the dirt and back onto the highway. He then walks around my car twice, and finally asks:

"Lady, where exactly did he hit you?" After I showed him, he said, "Well, I know what my next car is gonna be!!"

Whoo....what a day.

My Story got Published!!!!

2004-10-07T22:25:00.000-05:00

http://www.lexicon.tf/view_library.php?lib_id=4488

My Transformers fanfic one shot got posted on Lexicon!

I'm a happy person!

*does the happy dance*

I give up. I swear.........

2004-09-29T20:18:00.000-05:00

*sigh* Well, thats just Prime..........

Man, I just had the perfect ending for the perfect day.

You know the kind of day I've had.

Well, since it's nice and cool out. Almost chilly actually, I decided to use ne of the firelogs left over from last year.

I opened the fireplace, lit the log, and stepped back to enjoy a soothing fire to calm my nerves.

However............

I forgot about the damper.

The entire living room filled with smoke, so I had to open all the windows and doors to air it out.

I just started laughing so hard I had tears running down my face.

I need a beer. And I'm out of beer.

Dangit!

The day from Hell

2004-09-29T14:37:00.000-05:00

I swear, this day sucks.

This morning, I got up like I normally do, loaded my dishwasher, like I normally do, and for some reason, didn't run it.

My car needed to go to the shop, and heres where the fun starts.....
I was just told that the head gasket and manifold will need fixed. And hey, by the way, your two rear tires are so bald on the inside that the wires are poking out.

Head gasket and extras: $4000
Two rear tires, $400.

Joy.

Go home and while I'm debating on wether to fix the car or just trade it in, the doorbell rings, at 3:05 pm mind you.

It's the water company telling me they just shut my water off.

WTF!!?? I just paid this...didn't I?

Crap, I didn't. Oh well, it's only $85.00. I'll just run down and pay it real quick and.....

Whats that? The closed at 3:oo? F###!

Great. No water till morning. Double f###, I didn't run the dishwasher either.....

Joy, joy to the world.

I'm just waiting on a meteorite to fall on my head right now.............

I think I need a hug.

2004-09-19T21:08:00.000-05:00

It's my birthday today.........

Happy Birthday me. :-)

Heres the new kitten

2004-09-18T00:23:00.000-05:00

. Ain't he cute?

Must.....kill....boss

2004-09-12T22:32:00.000-05:00

Okay, at work, I'm the girl they call when something needs fixed or hooked up, or whatever. Be it a new home theater system, satelitte or custom install.

On wednsday, we got in 3 new Bose systems. My boss, hereafter called..Satan, says.:

"Tina, the Bose reps are coming in on Sunday. We (you) gotta have them hooked by then, or else!!"

So I spent the last three days hooking up displays tha had no nots, bolts or mounting hardware. I had to scrounge the entire store to find screws that sorta worked, cut them and then grind them down to size in the car install bay. "!!##%#$@"

So here I am, Sunday morning, tired sweaty and thouroughly pissed off when the two Bose reps walk in. They take a good long look at the displays, turn to me and say:

"Hey, you got most of it done" Now I'm suspicious. I ask them why they say this. Heres the kick in the head.

"Well," I tell them, "You sent an e-mail saying we had to have this done by Sunday morning."

He looks at me funny and says:

"Well, no. I sent your boss an e-mail saying that we were gonna be in Sunday to hook all this up."

I am going to kill him.

Slowly.............

Here kitty, kitty,kitty..

2004-08-31T18:51:00.000-05:00

Dangit, I'm a pushover.........

My mothers cat had her last batch of kittens 8 weeks ago. We were over there today to see them and pet them one last time, before they go to thier new homes.

Well, mom mentioned that there was one that hadn't found a home yet, and she was going to have Cat Welfare pick the little bugger up tomorrow.

My oldest son was all like "Mom, can we keep him. He's sooo cute. Look at him!".

Uh, no. I already have 2, and cats can get expensive with the shots, vet visits and such.

Right as we were leaving the little rotten thing walks across the room, and jumps up in my lap, starts purring and pats my face with his little paw.

Yeah, we now have 3 cats...........

I gotta start getting tougher...or something. :-)

Transformers

2004-08-24T12:23:00.000-05:00

Yeah, I'm a big Transformers freak. Almost as much as Star Wars!

A friend made me this awesome avatar: whadda ya think?

.

Damn, I can be weird sometimes.........

2004-08-17T10:47:00.000-05:00

I was with my father in law yesterday as he went downtown to file some papers on his new house. I had just gotten out of the gym, so I kinda looked like some raggedy homeless person.

Anyway...

I had to go back down to the lobby of the large building we were in, and I was riding in the elevator with a few people, all dressed in suits.

Suddendly, this weird idea came over me......

I tapped the shoulder of the guy in front of me and whispered loudly to him..

"Yoda told me that I would be the greatest Jedi master ever!"

Man, the looks on those peoples faces and the way they all kinda scrambled to get off on the next floor was....classic!

It was a good day.

Spider Part II

2004-07-30T17:50:00.000-05:00

I killed it!!!!!!!!

I'm happy now........

Spiders

2004-07-30T16:09:00.000-05:00

There is a big ass spider in my house.

Last night it crawled in my front door, just like he owned the place and sauntered up under my audio rack.

Now, I can't find him, and I am freaking out. I know it's under there, but I don't want to pull the rack out to find him.

Help me!!

Movies

2004-07-29T21:29:00.000-05:00

Well, today my friend from work dropped off a copy of I,Robot and Anchorman for me.

God I love him. I, Robot was pretty good, but........

Anchorman was the worst movie ever! I think my IQ went down, just by viewing it.

Gah.

Testing...

2004-07-21T16:42:00.000-05:00

Well, I took some more placement tests for the Navy today.....and it seems I have now placed into the Accelerated Programs. Yay for me!

Now they get to pay for my college and I get to stay (more than likely) in the States. :-)

In the Navy......

2004-07-02T21:39:00.000-05:00

Well, I've thought about it some more.

I think I am gonna take them up on thier offer. This would be my last chance to do so.

They tell me that I'll only have to do a 6 week refresher course before I get assigned.

I hope it's still in the US.

Ah well, wish me luck!

Navy Recruiters

2004-06-30T10:19:00.000-05:00

Man, these guys just won't take no for an answer.

I have gotten 2 more calls in the last 2 weeks, and a letter to my home reminding me that I have until my birthday this year to go back in.

I was joking with some co-workers that..

If it's gotten to the point where they're calling up a bunch of old geezers like me...

Then we're royally screwed!!!

I don't think I'm going to take them up on ther offer. But sometimes I wonder what it would be like to still be in the service.

I dunno.

Customer Service?

2004-06-21T21:05:00.000-05:00

Okay, my job has asked me to give blood, now I actually arm wrestled a customer today to convince him to buy some cables.

Sheesh! :-)

These two guys came in today, obviously right from the gym.

The one guy bought a nice DVD player, and I told him he needed to get the component cables.

He kinda laughed and held out his wallet and said:

"Sweetie, if you can break my grip on my wallet, I'll buy whatever cables you want to sell me."

Well........

*evil snicker*

I simply pulled up on his pinky ( a sure way to break anyones grip), and handed him a set of $30 cables.

Yep, he bought them. :-)

Sometimes, I love my job.

Giving blood

2004-06-20T07:39:00.000-05:00

Well, yesterday, my boss volunteered me and some of the other guys ta work to donate blood.

Lucky me. They always have trouble getting blood out of this stone. :) It hurt the entire time!

However, I did get to see my boss wuss out at the last second. Classic!

On that note, he asked me if I wanted to go back into management. The company is probably going to be going public in the next couple of years, the way we are growing right now. I used to be a manager, but it was making me insane. I mean, the money's better, and the opportunity to get my own store is great, but I have to admit, I love being in sales.

I dunno. Maybe. The hours are longer, but I'd have more say so in what happens. Also, we're going to be opening some stores in Myrtle Beach next year.

I'd love to go down there to help open some new stores. :-)

Funny Customers

2004-06-17T21:26:00.000-05:00

Anyone from the SW site that reads this will appreciate this:

I was waiting on this older customer today, and when we finished up his deal, he shook my hand.

Then he said "Hey, May the Force be with Ya."

When I looked at him kinda oddly, he said: "

You remember Star Wars, right?"

We both had a good laugh.

That made my day.

Reagans Funeral

2004-06-12T09:05:00.000-05:00

I watched his funeral last night. Cried during thw whole thing.

So deeply moving and touching. Having it at sunset like he wanted only added to the beauty of the ceremony.

Watching Nany break down on the casket had me weeping. She looked so lost and alone, even while surrounded by all her family and friends.

My heart just cried for her.

I'm gonna miss you Ronnie.

2004-06-09T19:36:00.000-05:00

Crap, can cicadas get any louder!!?

They are everywhere out here.

Bleah.

2004-06-08T19:56:00.000-05:00

Well, today was another boring..long meeting at work. It wouldn't be so bad, but we have to drive all the way out to Reynoldsburg for the thing. Bleah.

Got to see the new stuff, nothing really new.

But, I did win another pair of JBL tower speakers.

Go me!

Ouch.

2004-06-06T21:41:00.000-05:00

Well, I learned something new today....

Do not apply Ben-Gay to your shoulder, and then wipe your eyes with the same hand about 10 minutes later.

Trust me......good advice.

2004-06-06T11:55:00.000-05:00

In other news, former President Raegan died yesterday.

When I heard this I almost cried. He was the first president I had ever voted for, and I had actually met him once while still in the service.

A fine man.

At least he's in a better place now.

*leaves jellybeans in remembrance*

Those darn kids.

2004-06-06T11:50:00.000-05:00

Okay, I let my kids go into my room to watch tv and stuff. Sometimes they take snacks in, but i told them they had better clean it all up or else.

I'm in my room, and notice that it smells.........odd. I vacuum, dust and everything. No go.

I spray Febreeze on the carpets and then decisde to change the bedding. When I take the sheets off, I have to move the dust ruffle over, and look under my bed....

They had put all of thier candy wrappers and a few dirty dishes under the bed to hide it!!!!!!!!

Ahhhhh!

Well, today they get to help me clean the entire house to my satisfaction.

That'll teach them. ;)

2004-06-02T21:19:00.000-05:00

Well, I guess we're going to do the marital counseling thing. Went tonight for the first time. Meh, I dunno. We both talked a bit about what we both expected from our marriage, and then we both talked to this guy in private.

Ed seemed to be a bit...nicer when it was over. *sigh* I know he has a lot of insecurity issues, but I'm just a bit tired of that being the excuse for everything.

He is the only person I've ever "been" with, and if after 15 years of being 100% faithful doesn't "prove" anything, then I don't know what will.

But, at least he's willing to admit he made some mistakes and is willing to work on it. I suppose that means something. Right?

Anyway, I'm really not ready to throw away 15 years of marriage, but I wonder if I'll ever be able to really trust him. And to me, trust means everything...........

Ah well............

2004-05-31T21:51:00.000-05:00

Okay, today is Memorial Day.

I had planned to go to the Memorial Service downtown to pay my respects. And my brother who is back from Iraq had planned to go with me.

My boss had called and asked if I could come in for a "few minutes" as they were short staffed. Me, like an idiot, said yes.

Can you believe that he said that I needed to stay because it was more important!

Holy Shit!! Two people I knew had died in the Gulf War, but oh no, work was more important. After I screamed at him for about 10 minutes, he said I could go. Then he said that he forgot that I used to be in the Navy.

I swear I almost slapped him right there on the sales floor. Man, that man is an idiot......

PS, I can still get into my old uniform. :-)

2004-05-29T08:54:00.000-05:00

Dangit!! Why wont the DVD burn on my computer!!???

I've tried every different type of file saving, and it just won't work.

I know I need more memory, but I'm just too cheap to pay for it.

Ah well.

2004-05-23T19:11:00.000-05:00

Well, I had my brother call the dating service to check in on it some more. Ed never did finish the application. So what does that mean?? Did he chicken out, or maybe realise that he would get caught?

At first he said he didn't do it. Then he told me that he never meant anything from it. He was curious. Curious?? WTF!!? About what, pray tell?

My mother and my father in law say that he's just looking for some attention. Well, if he wanted some attention, he could have asked. He got it, but I don't think he's gonna like it.

Part of me says that if we've lasted 15 years, then I should try to work it out.

But the majority of me says: "Hey, he cheated once, and now he's trying this shit?? Dump him!"

I guess I really need to look at my options. Everything is in my name, thank God. But, so are all the bills. I can pay for everything, but it's gonna be tight. He's still out of work, but is starting a new job tomorow.

*sigh*

I dunno..........

2004-05-22T23:27:00.000-05:00

Went to go see Shrek 2 last night.

Loved it. Really loved it.

Ahh..... It's hot in here.

Who shut all the windows again?

2004-05-21T17:41:00.000-05:00

Mmm........

Thunderstorms. I love'em, and were getting a huge one now. Theres nothing more relaxing than sitting on the porch watching the lightning.

In other news........

Ed and I have decided were gonna have a long talk tomorow after I take the kids over to moms.

*sigh*

Anyway, getting ready to take the kids to go see Shrek 2.

2004-05-20T20:38:00.000-05:00

Okay, today I have........

Changed all his passwords on the internet.

Changed the PIN number on his ATM card.

Disconnected the cables on the battery in his van.

"Accidently" put all his favorite shirts in the dryer, instead of hanging them up.

Signed him up with every gay porn site I could find.

Hid one of each of his tennis shoes.

Tommorow is another day..............

2004-05-20T06:30:00.000-05:00

Well, yesterday I got a call from a woman who wanted to talk to Ed. She was evasive and said that he was missing some info on his application and he needed to call her back. It was from a dating service.

*sigh*

We've been having issues for a year now, but I guess I've just ignored the signs. I know I've been working more hours and have put on a few pounds, but heck, so has he.

Now he's telling me that he never signed up for that dating service.

Do I look stupid? Not this time buddy. He has strayed in the past, and I still took him back.

I guess I didn't want to accept it, but now I really need to take stock in whats important to me. And this is important.

Ah well.

2004-05-19T21:56:00.000-05:00

Do you ever get the feeling that something in your life just isn't.......right?

I've been seeing some things going on in my life for the last few months and I've ignored it.

Little signs that I would see in any of my friends. Things that I would bring to thier attention in an instant.

Stuff I normally wouldn't think twice about.

But, now.....I see them in my life.

I think my husband is cheating on me.

Damn.

I need to go lie down for a bit.

2004-05-19T09:29:00.000-05:00

Ahhh.......I love thunderstorms.

Except when Ed leaves the rear window of my new car down. What a mess!

Well, at least he's taking it in right now to be steam cleaned.

2004-05-18T09:48:00.000-05:00

I want to add more stuff to my Blog. I want to add more links to others blogs, but the stupid code won't listen to me.

Grrrrrrrrrrr.

2004-05-16T19:29:00.000-05:00

Today was actually pretty amusing at work today.

Where I work, if a digital camera comes back, we normally test it out for a few minutes to make sure everything's okay. So......

A camera comes back, and needs to go out. So the guys take it in back, test it, and put it out on the floor. no problem, right?

Well, this older lady comes in and buys it. A few hours later, she calls laughing so hard I almost can't understand her.

It seems the guys took it in back, and in a fit of boredom proceded to make thier own short rendition of The Hulk movie. Complete with jumping up and down, throwing empty boxes at each other, using paper tube "swords" and yanking off thier work shirts while making the "Hulky" noises!

Obviously they didn't erase it before the camera hit the floor!!!

The lady brought it back and told us she had shown the entire apartment complex the stunning special effects. :p

I have never seen so many guys turn that shade of red in my life. God, I love working here ! :-)

2004-05-15T21:04:00.000-05:00

Today was okay.

But the boys and Ed have been on a bitchy bender for the last two days.

*sigh*

I swear it must be hormones or something.

On a different note, Zack got in a fight at school today, and even though the teacher said that he didn't start it, he was suspended for 3 days as well.

Next time, I'm going to tell him that if he's going to get into trouble anyway, make the fight good.

Does this make me a bad mom?

2004-05-12T12:58:00.000-05:00

Stupid gas company!! They were supposed to be here today to get my service turned back on. No show, so I called them. This is almost word for word how the convo went:

"Hey, you didn't show up today to fix this"

"Yes, I see where you asked to have the service re-establised. Did you want us to come out this week to turn it on?"

(no you stupid heifer, I like taking cold showers!!)

"Yeah, that would be nice. At least it's not cold out!"

"Okay, lemme check. Oh, I see you have an old bill that also needs paid."

"An old bill? I shouldn't even have a balance. What old bill?"

"Lets see. Oh, its from *address* from October in 1987. It's for 501.58. Would you like to pay that on your credit card?"

*breathe in, breathe out*

"Um, yeah I lived there, but, um, that was almost 15 years ago!! I'm faily certain I paid that when I moved to my new address!"

"Oh, okay... Do you still have your receipt?"

"No, I don't. why is this now just showing up. I've bought 3 houses since then and they always pull your credit. It never showed up. Why now? Oh, and I know I paid it. "

"Oh, okay... Do you still have your receipt?"

*strangles the phone and kicks the wall*

"Uh, why would I keep a receipt froma a bill I paid 15 freaking years ago??"

"Oh, well then I can't tun it back on. Yeah, thats a really old bill. I wonder why they never billed you?"

"They probably did send me a new bill, and I'm pretty sure it was paid. They wouldn't have turned the service on at the new address if it wasn't paid."

"Yes ma'am thats true. Thats why I can't reschedule a re-connect until your bill is paid."

"Lady, I'm not paying 500 dollars for a 15 year old bill that was paid!!"

"Oh, okay... Do you still have your receipt?"

*screams into the phone*

"I AM NOT paying 500 dollars to turn on my service when I pay my bill in full every ******* month!! I want to speak to your supervisor!"

"Okay, can you hold?"

*holds*

*holds*

*holds*

>click<

And they hung up on me. So now, I get to call my old bank and probably pay lord knows what to find a really old check from back in the 80's.

Crap, that bank closed.

I'm NOT gonna pay it either........

2004-05-12T00:08:00.000-05:00

I forgot what I was going to type...........

I need to go to sleep.

Bleah.

2004-05-11T08:54:00.000-05:00

Well great!! The gas company just showed up and shut my gas off. WTF!?? I just paid the bill last week.

Well, I guess I get to spend the day on the phone......again.

2004-05-09T22:30:00.000-05:00

Okay, Ed has officially discovered Alans thread in the Cantina for chatting.

And to think I left him there with Sham and RJ. I think I've created a monster.

2004-05-09T19:19:00.000-05:00

Well, today is Mothers Day, and my brothers birthday. Yep, I forgot the brother. :p

As well, he forgot mine. *chuckles*

Sean made me a wind chime at school. I guess I have to at least hang up this poor thing up at least once. He worked so hard on it! :-)

But, a friend of mine dropped off a copy of "VanHelsing" on DVD. He's my hero. :-) He's giving me "Hellboy" tommorow.

In other news, work was crappy.....again. Why do people have to act so freaking cheap, when they know I saw them drive up in a new Beemer, or Mercedes?

If you want the $4000.00 tv, don't sit there and bitch and moan on how expensive it is, and suggest I ask my manager to give it to you for 5 freaking dollars or something else dumbass like that! My job would be perfect if it wasn't for the customers. :-)

Anyway, gonna go hang out at the boards for a bit. I need a good chuckles every now and then.

2004-05-09T08:08:00.000-05:00

Well, had to take the little guy to the ER again. Well, his daddy did.

Sean decided to chase a car on his bike, and then the car stopped right in front of him and..

POW!!

He's okay, but he got read the riot act for not wearing his helmet.

And people wonder why I have grey hair............

2004-05-08T09:46:00.000-05:00

Okay, it appears that someone deleted my old blog.

Well......do over!!

Went to pick up Zack's prescription for his meds, and I took the wrong one. Geez..You'd think I could read at my age.

Come home from the store and he's running around in his socks and no shoes. And he wonders why he never has any socks to wear.

At least Sean's still asleep.........

Ah, back to work I go. I swear, I spend more time at work than with my kids.

Grrrrrrrrrrrr.